Sunday, November 17, 2002
i think i've figured out the source of my recent discontent. it's because i ask too much of myself and am now unable to find solace in others.
last year i was somewhere very near supremely happy. i had friends, i had my writing, never matter how meager it was. i had myself. i didn't need to give my life its meaning. i had found meaning in nikki, joy, and candy, and that was enough for me.
now that i find myself suddenly without them, i feel a little bit lost and alone. before, i existed for the purpose of sorting their lives out, fixing the messes they made, crying with them and laughing with them, fixing our lives together, and in the process, threading them together without much hope of getting them out. some of us tried to escape but couldn't. we were a little too connected.
now that they're gone i find myself drifting from day to day without a lot to look forward to.
i guess i just miss you, guys. that's all.
will you catch me when I fall? :: |
named Ekai Ungson
listen to the static
"Wonder" - Megan McCauley
"Everyone is Wrong" - The Donnas
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
"Blind" - Lifehouse
"Lonely No More" - Rob Thomas
"Akap" - Imago
"The Difference" - Matchbox Twenty
"Extraordinary" - Liz Phair