Friday, November 22, 2002
kimochi warui. the last words that asuka utters when the end of the world was at hand. 'i feel sick' is what they mean, and i do feel sick. my neck and my right ankle hurts from being thrown, again, too high and too forcefully, by my best friend. i know she didn't mean it, but that doesn't make things stop hurting. i know i'll probably be sick, again, with the flu this week. it always happens to me.
i've never been one to have conquered physicalities but this was ridiculous. i know i can't stand up by way of external strength, as i have none of that, but falling-- that wonderful sensation when all semblance of right was taken away... it just felt right. but when i slammed into the mat, hard, i remembered.
i was a weakling.
sometimes, i ask myself, if i even deserved this.
will you catch me when I fall? :: |
named Ekai Ungson
listen to the static
"Wonder" - Megan McCauley
"Everyone is Wrong" - The Donnas
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
"Blind" - Lifehouse
"Lonely No More" - Rob Thomas
"Akap" - Imago
"The Difference" - Matchbox Twenty
"Extraordinary" - Liz Phair