Saturday, November 30, 2002
school is being a biatch. i don't wanna do anything pertaining to the old testament anymore. my head hurts and i desperately want a cheese stick.
i don't know what possessed me last night, but i was surfing through sugarquill and fictionalley.org whn i was hit with a very powerful surge of despair. i felt like i was doing everything wrong, and doing nothing write, and i felt very, very lost. i had les on IM, and talked to her, and when i went home, i called alli. then i talked to my mother.
talking to my mother about such things as doubting my writing abilities is disconcerting. it was so disconcerting i actually wound up crying. i never talk to my mom, and if i do, it's not about such things. i hide a lot of things from her, because she doesn't understand, and i'm mostly right, she doesn't understand. but at the very least, she tries.
that night she wanted to go to the robinson's midinight madness sale and wanted me along. if we did go, she'd have bought me tons of clothes to cheer me. mom's that way. takes me shopping to cheer me up and pays for everything. my mom is pretty brilliant.
will you catch me when I fall? :: |
named Ekai Ungson
listen to the static
"Wonder" - Megan McCauley
"Everyone is Wrong" - The Donnas
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
"Blind" - Lifehouse
"Lonely No More" - Rob Thomas
"Akap" - Imago
"The Difference" - Matchbox Twenty
"Extraordinary" - Liz Phair