Wednesday, January 15, 2003
Oi, wickedjoe, carlitos, and maite. Glad to see you're all alive and well.
I miss school. Dammit, that should be the last thing you hear from a seventeen year-old working teenager. Don't we all just want to be independent? Guess what. Working does not make you independent, in fact it does quite the opposite. It makes you dependent on every fucking cent you earn because without it you are dead, literally, and figuratively.
And I wanted to be a writer. How many starving artists do we have these days?
I don't wanna starve. Artist, yes, starving no. I think I've had enough starving when I was three. It wasn't funny and it's something I never want to face again. I starved because I didn't have a choice. Now I do.
But school gave me a semblance of order, a sense of direction. Somehow, the work I do now doesn't give me enough of a sense of self or others-- I have no one to interact with.
Sometimes I wonder if that's a good or a bad thing.
will you catch me when I fall? :: |
named Ekai Ungson
listen to the static
"Wonder" - Megan McCauley
"Everyone is Wrong" - The Donnas
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
"Blind" - Lifehouse
"Lonely No More" - Rob Thomas
"Akap" - Imago
"The Difference" - Matchbox Twenty
"Extraordinary" - Liz Phair