Monday, May 05, 2003
The weather outside should be outlawed as a biohazard. I don't think anybody can survive in that heat. So today my prayers go out to poor Tomomi-chan, who is out with Yukina-chan-tachi, on a hiking trip. Yuusuke is here in my room again (more like everyday) because his mom won't let him turn on his own airconditioning. He finally convinced Obaasan to let him take his Dreamcast over, so now he's playing the Sister Princess RPG. Looks like fun.
Life lately has been criminally simple. So simple, in fact, that it easily becomes boring. And strange things happen when I'm bored.
Yesterday, I stared at my blank notebook and promptly cried my eyes out. No, it's not for the reasons you think.
The funny thing was I was crying for no reason at all.
It's disconcerting to try and live a life alone when you've become so used to having people around you to fall back on, every single day. It's awkward knowing that though I stare at the cellphone now, I can't use it for anything. Don't want to use it for anything. Shouldn't use it for anything.
I'm not okay, just yet.
And I shouldn't ask for help. I'm here for exactly that purpose.
I'll clean up my messes myself.
I'm old enough to do that, now.
will you catch me when I fall? :: |
named Ekai Ungson
listen to the static
"Wonder" - Megan McCauley
"Everyone is Wrong" - The Donnas
"You and Me" - Lifehouse
"Blind" - Lifehouse
"Lonely No More" - Rob Thomas
"Akap" - Imago
"The Difference" - Matchbox Twenty
"Extraordinary" - Liz Phair